After now reading your entire blog, everything besides the shitty situation you and your family are in seems perfectly normal. I don't know what help you were looking for when you posted this other than support to get better, but that doesn't seem to be the route you want to take. You seem to think you are perfectly ok right now but you very clearly are not. Maybe this whole thing was a troll and you really are fine, but if you seriously believe any of the stuff you wrote in that blog then you really need to find a good psychiatrist and get some help.