Quote Originally Posted by Snooperz View Post
TBH though I don't know what I'd expect you guys to do even if you did believe me. Guess I'm just looking for some understanding but it seems unlikely. I'll stop making posts about this shit and you guys can stay in your form of denial (which to tell the truth is probably better for your mental health anyways - god forbid people wake the fuck up and realize what's actually happening in this world) and we can all get along.
That's such a fucking cop out though. Pretending you're more aware of everything and we're all just sleeping under the covers? Seriously? Come on. We see the holes in your accounts because they're so blatantly obvious to everyone but you. The thing is we're trying to be understanding and not so dodge about it, but you keep trying to convince us everything you say is real. There is no good reason you have provided as to why you'd be targeted with this kind of heavy attack (which would cost millions of dollars and would be incredibly dangerous for a company or individuals to undertake) so why should we believe you? "Oh yeah my buddy Snoop is under attack on a daily basis by a bunch of tear eyed sad people who infiltrate every faucet of his life to make him feel crazy with zero obvious benefit" - wouldn't THAT be the most unfounded conclusion for US to come to? I mean, shit man, wouldn't this kind of thing be happening to Obama instead, since he's such a big threat to corporations and conservative republicans? Why you, of all people? You just keep jumping around with various half-possibilities, like "well my EX stepfather worked for Boeing" and stuff like that. Makes no sense to anybody - including you - yet we're supposed to be right on board? This grand conspirator would be better off murdering you and getting away with it than any of this. I certainly don't foresee reading "BOEING, TARGET AND THOUSANDS OF CONSPIRATORS AMONG THOSE FOUND GUILTY OF PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE AGAINST LOWLY TARGET EMPLOYEE" any fucking time soon friend, and I most especially doubt I'll read the reason for all of that would be "CUZ WE WERE BORED :<"

All of your citations are so totally not even credible in and of themselves. Urban Dictionary? Are you fucking serious? Anyone afflicted with Schizophrenia can just add any of that shit on there or write a blog or some dodge website that has no citations or proof or even any coherency to speak of. It's as if I'm watching A Beautiful Mind in fucking real time here and everyone knows it's a train wreck but you, and that's sad as fuck, friend. The fact that you'll go to all these lengths to prove that something's NOT wrong with you because it's not so plainly obvious to YOU and certainly it just must be that EVERYONE else is crazy and out to get you proves in itself that you need therapy and treatment. It's as if whatever mechanism for rationality in your brain turned off. Your perceptions are so askew and you see no problem with accosting people who you feel are out to get you with as if you have plain and obvious evidence, which you do not. Instead of seeing that when you basically attack someone and accuse them of crazy shit when they've never fucking met you before, that they'd find you a little bit nuts and would be nervous around you and what you might be capable of, you see it as if you're getting too close to the "real story" and their cover is blown. Meanwhile in your fucking brain EVERYTHING is odd and EVERYBODY is nervous that you're catching on...never mind that maybe it's YOU who makes everyone around you uncomfortable and uneasy. Based on that, you probably think we're all in on this now because we don't agree with you. "They're trying to use logic to throw me off the trail! BUT I KNOW BETTER!"

You know why so many people are afraid of schizophrenia and those afflicted with it? Because they don't know they are. I wouldn't want to see that something is wrong with my brain either. I'd hate the burdon of feeling like the whole world is against me and I don't know why. I'd hate people saying I'm crazy and that I need to take medication. I'd hate the possibility that if I missed one medication dose, I could spiral out of reality and go crazy all while thinking my medication is just a brain control device and I that I don't really need it. That's scary shit. The thing is, you can have a normal life with treatment. You won't be mind controlled or some shit to believe what everyone else believes...but you'll certainly take note of the shit you've written on your blog and be a little uncomfortable with what you say and do when you're not on your medication. What you don't seem to understand - or rather, what you refuse to understand - is that EVERY person afflicted with schizophrenia says the same shit you do and equally do not see themselves as needing treatment. It's like your brain is colorblind to seeing yourself as sick when nothing has obviously changed overnight.

Dunno friend. I think you need help, and I'm aware that you will most likely never get it and things may get out of hand. The more we sympathize and go along with what you say without trying to point out the crazy shit while simply replying "ignore all that shit and just go along with your life", the more you get upset that we don't see it. That is one day going to get more and more out of hand. When you simply can't accept that your friends review what you've said and passively reply "just say fuck those people you think are trying to make you crazy!", no doubt someday will become more psychotic and aggressive. It's sort of sad that you don't have anyone to help you...sounds like your mom took off (probably with the same sickness), your ex-stepdad won't talk to you (probably because of what you're accusing him of), your coworkers and friends are distancing themselves from you not because they're apart of some "master plan" but because of how you've behaved around them and even directly towards them, etc. You're quickly ostracizing yourself and it's only going to make everything worse. At the same time I realize there's nothing I can say or do to help you get help. It's a waste of everyone's time and is only going to make you more adement and upset.

"DAVE IS IN ON IT IMO HES AFRAID THAT IM GETTING TOO CLOSE TO THE TRUTH" - Snoop